Sunday, April 26, 2015

Musical journey (57)

My previous post was titled "Alone in a Hotel Room" and continuing with the theme of hotel room, this month's musical sharing is a song set in a hotel room.

Picture this—a woman retouching her make up as her man gets dressed next to the door. It was passionate love-making a few minutes before but it went by so quickly. Feeling used, the woman laments that it was love that started her affair with a married man. The only time these two could meet was when the wife's working late and the only place they could share a brief time together is in you've guess it, a small dark and musty hotel room. The poor woman knows it is wrong and that the relationship has no future but what can she do in the face of what she misconstrue as genuine affection? But who is to be blamed more? The woman who chooses repeated heartbreaks or the man who has used and abused two people at the same time?

And as if things are not bad enough, it starts to rain...



[犯错]

词 / 曲 : 锦泉
 

热情背后,你的冷漠沉淀在角落
无名指在今夜显得分外赤裸
绕梁的寂寞钻进我耳朵
卸下的羞耻,脸上再抹过


有人问我,为了什么如此沉沦堕落
要我悔改,从新来过,忘了这个我
中了毒,着了魔,他那句承诺
已无力再追问对错
就请让我继续闯祸


若这全是我的错
为了你我愿轻视后果
若你非要我保持沉默
连 "我爱你" 我也能不说


没有名分的折磨
那缠不着光线的摸索
拖着渐渐消瘦的轮廓
罪恶感无处闪躲


抱着不堪一击的脆弱
是爱让我犯了错



[Sinned]

Behind the passion, your silence settling in a corner
Your ring finger seemed extraordinarily lonesome tonight
The echoing desolation creeping into my ears
The shame I have shed from my face I now put back on

I am asked why have I sunk so low
And why do I degrade myself like this
As they keep asking me to repent, forget the past and start anew
But I have been possessed and poisoned by his promise
And now I have no more strength to distinguish right from wrong
Please just let me continue getting into trouble

If this is all my wrongdoing, I am willing to overlook the consequences
If you want me to keep this secret, I will seal my lips
And not even say "I love you" despite how much I want to

Living through the torture of being kept
As I drag my withering body along, frantically searching in the dark
But I still can see the guilt as it has nowhere to hide

I embrace my fragile weakness
As I sin in the name of love




PS: I shall write another song in which the lead is male and he is the one having the affair with another married man. It will be fun.

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

Alone in a hotel room

It has been a long while since I have posted photo shoot pictures and it is now time to make such a post especially when the pictures are piling up in my hard disc as I am still doing more shoots. This series took place in a Melbourne city hotel room which is quite a usual setting for photo shoots since full privacy is guaranteed there and hence nudity is not an issue. You may feel that it is sleazy having a model and his photographer locked in a hotel room. In my opinion if there is anything that is going to happen, it will happen regardless of the location. Of the many shoots that I have done, actual physical contact between the photographer and myself took place in less than 10% of them. Usually the contact comes in the form of fluffing and nothing further. The thing about photo shoots is that there needs to be some sexual chemistry in the air in order to have good pictures. This sexual energy builds up over the duration of the shoot and I always find it a little unbearable at the end if I don't relieve that tension. Of course this doesn't happen in every shoot as most of the time I simply get too tired and hungry to feel horny.

For this particular shoot, the photographer did not touch me but I still managed to release that sexual energy nonetheless–go figure how. Suffice to say those pictures during the "climax" did not form part of the portfolios of both the model and the photographer. I didn't ask for a copy of those shots as they didn't look very good from the proofs the photographer sent me. By the way some of the pictures below were taken using an iPhone–see if can spot which ones. I also personally edited the entire series. One more thing to note is that my muscles weren't very defined in this shoot as I did not condition my body beforehand so if you are searching for pictures of a muscle god, this series is not for you. But if you are wondering what I do when I am alone in a hotel room, you're in luck.

Lastly I just want to let you know that the uncensored versions are all featured in my photo book.

OK, my babbling is now done. You may proceed to feast on these twelve delectable morsels.