Sunday, January 31, 2016

Sex in the heartlands

How often do you see a hunky male model in skimpy underwear posing for the camera in a public park deep in the Singaporean heartlands? Well today you will get a glimpse of this unusual scene.

To catch the morning light the photographer, his assistant and I met at Bishan Park not too far from where I was staying and made our way to a particular location filled with elderly folks going about their morning exercise routines. Without a care in the world, I stripped down to my underwear and prepped my body with some static exercises and light oil-application and then we began shooting. As a professional amateur model, this routine is all too common for me but this is my first-ever shoot in the heartlands so I decided to give it a go despite the photographer being a rather inexperienced one. Also I have been visiting Singapore a little too often ever since I started my fly-in/fly-out work assignment. This made the recent trips back home a little boring at times and since photo shoots are one of my favourite past times, I decided to organise one.

The shoot started well enough but it started to go downhill quite quickly. At one point the photographer wanted me to lie flat in a shallow marsh without having a clear idea if what he had in mind would even work. I did not want to risk getting myself all soiled for a maybe so I refused to get in the swampy section of the (fake) river despite his numerous pesky attempts to push me into doing it. The sun was also getting a little toasty and I was getting increasingly impatient with the photographer after the assistant left early leaving me alone with him and my frustrations. Then it got too hot to continue and I turned down a request to move to another location for more snaps. It is rare for me to say no to an opportunity for more shots so you can imagine how unhappy I was that morning. We then parted ways at a nearby bus stop but that was not the end of the irritation.

When I got the final edits, I was shocked to only receive six pictures. His reason for that was many of them were repetitive and with the wrong facial expression and he needed to protect his image and brand. He also blamed that on me rejecting his suggestion to move to another location for more shots. To make matters worse, the ones he selected were those that I did not like and when I tried to ask for more, the argument online went a little ugly. Suffice to say I did not get what I wanted and that shoot became my worst ever (well, one out of thirty five ain't that bad).

So there you go, the very precious six shots from one of my smaller series for all of you to savour. It is my small compensation to the community for not joining in the Midsumma Pride March today. For those who are marching today, may Pride be with all of you!


 




Friday, January 15, 2016

Musical journey (66)

We have all fallen out of love at some point in our lives. If you are the creative sort, you most likely have tried directing the pain of heartbreak into art before and I am no different. However I have not experienced that for a long time now so where can song-writers like me get inspiration? Some people use the stories of others and some simply use their imagination. If you put your mind to it, you would be surprised at how many different permutations of how a relationship can end you can come up with.

In this month’s musical post, I am presenting one such permutation. The story is quite straightforward actually and it goes like this. X and Y have known each other for years. Y recently got dumped by Z. Y is still very much in love with Z and tries to get back with Z by finding excuses for Z’s failings. Y thinks that X is Y’s close friend but in fact X has been secretly in love with Y for a long time. X has been keeping this from Y because X knows Y will never fall in love with X. The pain of seeing Y go through this cycle of self-destruction becomes increasingly difficult to bear and this is all because X is not brave enough to tell Y of X’s true feelings.

How is that for a love story? Now let us see if the tune fits the plot...



[你什么都不爱]

词 / 曲 : 锦泉
 

看你一天天消瘦
脸带渐渐地苍白
自从你和他分开
已有两个礼拜


你散发的光彩
被泪水给掩盖
我的心也随着你
日夜地在悲哀


失去了他之后

你什么都不爱
甚至连自己你都不多去理睬
你受过伤害
你不敢谈未来
但你不抬头看
你怎么能够明白


我不得不承认
我不能再忍耐
看着你折磨自己
我无助得好失败
只因我没勇气
接受我不是你所爱


你责怪你自己
为他寻找借口耍赖
你的心却傻傻地
日夜地在等待
失去他之后




[You Don't Love Anymore]

Watching you grow thinner and paler day by day
Two weeks have past since you left him

The glow on your face is now covered by tears
My heart never stops to feel the same sorrow in yours

Ever since you have lost him
You don't love anymore
You don't take care of yourself anymore
You don't dare to talk about the future anymore
Now that you have been hurt
But how can you makes sense of it all if you don't look up?

I cannot deny and keep it in any longer
I have to admit that I am a failure
To not be able to do anything when you torture yourself like that
Just because I don't have the courage
To accept the fact that I am not the one you love

You blame yourself as you make excuses for him
And for him your heart foolishly wait