Remember a while back I shared a composition where I wrote about a straight love affair between a woman and a married man? At the end of that post, I promised that I would write another song with the lead being a man who falls in love with another man who is married to a woman. I am going to fulfill that promise with this month's musical post!
You know how a ring leaves a mark on your finger if you had worn it for a long time? That is the title of the song. To someone who cannot be with the one he loves because he is married, this ring mark in his mind is like an ugly scar that sears into the skin, burning him every time he thinks of him and how much he belongs to someone else. This relationship has taken place in the dark for a long time (even before his lover got married) but the married man has just given an ultimatum that he will never leave his wife. To make it more painful, this came after a night of passionate sex. The jilted man feels utterly used and worthless after being committed for such a long time, albeit unilaterally. The affliction grows the more he thinks of the ring mark and what that meant. He then begins questioning it all... and that is point in the story when the song starts.
By the way I wrote the tune during my times of boredom in Papua New Guinea and I sent it to my niece to pen the lyrics in English. She is into writing emo poems so I thought it would be a fun collaboration. Alas she was too busy to embark on the project and so I ended up writing the words myself, in Chinese. I like the tune very much as it describes the feeling of despair perfectly. When you write as much as I do, you have to be creative in the story and I hope you will like the imagination I have injected into this piece.
词 / 曲 : 锦泉
哪儿 什么 为何 怎么可能
哪儿 什么 为何 怎么可能
Where, what, why, how can that be possible?
There is no point in asking now that it has happened
The warmth on my cheek left by your kiss
Washed by tears and dried by wind, has now turned cold
I chose to remain imprisoned, how foolish was I
Thinking that you still love me, how contradictory was I
Tossing and turning in bed, half awake and not asleep
Thirteen minutes past two is always the darkest time
The phone beside my pillow still refuses to make a sound
Limitless waiting is my worst fear
How can I torture myself without going overboard?
I don’t need your approval to go on this downward spiral
I can’t get that ring mark on your finger out of my mind and it's driving me crazy
I'll treasure the hatred you gifted me
How can you bear to see me sacrifice for love like this?
I’ll never give up waiting for the day you finally admit your mistakes
The howling wind and rain outside the window cross paths with my heartache
Yet you show no concern over my endless struggles
I turned off the lights in the empty room to allow loneliness to grow uncontrollably
Was I too naive to have enabled you and surrendered all self-respect?
And still you are in love with that woman
Leaving after toying with me, how irresponsible of you
The broken promise that you made adds to the list of things you're guilty of
I can’t maintain the balance between sadness and melancholy but I can traverse the pain perfectly
People say “it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all” but what I need is eternity
Where, what, why, how can that be possible?
There is no point in asking now that it has happened
Sunday, March 20, 2016
In this last entry of my Chinese New Year series (previous posts can be found here and here), you will see why I organised mummy's trip to Melbourne. The big fair held annually in the city with lots of stalls, firecrackers and performances is definitely the highlight of her trip and from the pictures, I think she really enjoyed herself. Too bad all good things have to come to an end and after a week spent with her, she went back home and it was back to Papua New Guinea for me. The next time I will see her is in a couple of months when she will prepare my favourite dishes. I simply cannot wait!!!
Mummy at our favourite yong tau foo joint. She had it before and wanted more so there we went. Gotta fuel up before our baking adventure!
Guess what hubby, mummy and I are starting to bake now??? Excitement fills the air!!!
Preparing key component #1 of the yummiest Chinese New Year goodie...
Now on to the making of key component #2... Both the journey and destination must be documented.
... and everyone got down to it. Baking can be such a cost-effective family activity where you get to enjoy both the process and the result. Most importantly it's an experience that can't be bought.
The fruits of our labour. Who knows we can churn out an auspicious 66 pineapple tarts for a cost price of less than $10? Mummy even had some to take back home. Well done family!
Mummy was hankering for some Korean BBQ and so Korean BBQ is what we had. She's the queen and I simply have to obey!
We yearn to be majorly scared so I hope this can at least get us a little bit there. Yet another horror movie night at home with mummy.
Let me buck the trend and reserve my 14th of February this year not for a lover or even a friend but for family. Happy Valentine's Day mummy!
This is what I wanted mummy to experience - the proper Chinese New Year festivities in Chinatown with the crowd, the food and the deafening firecrackers. This is definitely the highlight of her trip. Oh and we even got to shake the hands of Bill Shorten!
How can a trip down Lygon Street not include gelato and Brunetti's coffee? Little Italy's the breath of fresh air we needed away from the Chinatown hustle-bustle. Melbourne is such a multicultural city and mummy is absolutely loving it!
Of all the cuisines in the world, nothing beats food from home and so for this last dinner of mummy's trip we have opted for Singaporean. With rojak, fried pipi and mini seafood pot, you'd think we just dined at a hawker centre back on the little red dot!
Our last horror movie night in a little while and this looks like a promising one. Mummy and I are going to miss this much-loved routine!
It's been a good Chinese New Year and it's all because of mummy. Now it's time for her to head home and me to prepare to journey to the remote mountains again. I'm SO NOT looking forward to that!
Sunday, March 13, 2016
Here is the second part of the Facebook pictorial series documenting mummy's recent Melbourne trip where we spent our first Chinese New Year together outside of Singapore. It was a short stay so we did not venture out of the city but that did not mean we had a lack of fun. These pictures are there as proof. The other posts in this series can be found here and here.
We came and we conquered the night market with our eating powers. Looks like mummy enjoyed herself. Part two to follow.
Here are the rest of the night market snaps. There were SO many hotties out tonight and I was super distracted by them muscle guys while juggling food, taking pictures and not letting mummy get lost in the crowd! I have a feeling there's more night market experience to be had somewhere else so stay tuned!
Mummy actually decided to buy the pictures taken at the Aquarium yesterday and she thinks that it's $39 well spent. At least this now means that I can download and post them here. Didn't we say we were total tourist noobs?
How can time spent with mummy not be in a dim sum restaurant? This is our shopping rest stop and many bargains were snapped up once again. Retail and gastronomical therapies are a potently effective combination indeed.
Tea break after the hard work of shopping. Mummy was hungry so it's her fault that we're eating again!
Costco virgin no more. Even mummy has been to one so how can I be so out-of-touch with the bulk-buying populace?
Night markets are all about eating and nothing else and we did just that. It seems that mummy cannot get enough of night markets. More pics to come.
Seems like pigging out runs in the family... This is mummy and I enjoying Chinese New Year, Melbourne style while admiring the beautiful sunset by the waterfront.
Just finished watching this at home with mummy. It's not too good but seeing how many horrors and thrillers we've watched between us, we are a couple of really hardened critics of this genre and so it's rare to find a really good one these days. It's the time spent together that counts anyway.
We wanted to have a hotpot reunion lunch but the restaurant is only open for dinner. Oh well, when in Melbourne do as the Greeks do. Our sumptuous yet simple reunion lunch sorted!
Mummy having fun amongst veggies and fruit (Ision excluded) at Puja's and Barry's who are so nice to host us tonight.
Puja and Barry have done it again. Excellent dinner, excellent setting and excellent company. Excellence all around!
Sunday, March 6, 2016
For the first time my mummy spent her Chinese New Year in a western country. Although Melbourne is not an Asian city, I always feel that the Chinese New Year here is more traditional than the very commercial and touristy (a.k.a. fake) atmosphere Singapore gives me. This is why I had to organise a trip for her to visit Melbourne and welcome the year of the monkey here with me. The climax of the trip took place on her last full day but she did lots before that. In a series of three posts, I shall share with you the Facebook posts I have made that perfectly documented her one-week vacation. Here is post number one (the other posts in the series can be found here and here).
Finally! Both our Chinese New Years have officially started!
Angpaos given. Mandarin oranges exchanged. Tummies filled. Smiles all around. Well Ision was hiding his.
Coffee and shenanigans with mummy. My smartwatch tells me that I took 11,364 steps shopping with her today so I guess I have reason to eat more now!
Sumptuous dinner at Mum's must-have Thai place when she's in town. I think I ate too much... again!
The first horror movie night at home in the new year with mummy, just like old times - I miss this so much! On the menu tonight is an oldie but a goodie.
Mummy asking hubby what he added in his mushroom breakfast dish that made it smell so good. Ision the chef must be feeling proud! By the way the secret was butter, something not used in traditional Chinese cooking.
Even though this is not her first time here there's still much to explore in the biggest Melbourne market. This place is totally transformed at night and we shall conquer that tomorrow.
Almost nothing beats the feeling of nabbing a great bargain and we were lucky to experience that today. Resting our feet now at a coffee stop and then off me and mummy go again! Second horror movie night with mummy and there is more to come before she leaves. Hope the offering tonight is not too bad.
Second horror movie night with mummy and there is more to come before she leaves. Hope the offering tonight is not too bad.
Loving breakfast for hubby prepared by mummy. Toasted avocado garlic-buttered sandwich with fresh cherries. Ain't Ision lucky?
Mummy almost as fine as the weather by the Yarra River today.
A fun day out with mummy doing touristy stuff. We are both first-time visitors to this major Melbourne attraction. More pictures to follow very soon.
More from our time today as noob tourists. Now it's time for some dinner at the night market, my mummy's favourite eating spot!