Sunday, February 27, 2011

Musical journey (10)

To you, the homophobic religious nutcase as well as the more temperate bigot cloaked in ignorant conservatism, to you, the juvenile and intellectually-blind racist, to you, the one at work who thinks that I need to be as lazy as you to fit into your culture, to you, the lifeless killjoy who whinges about my pictures and everything else, to you, the drama queen who thinks that the world revolves around you, to you, the closetted one who tries to censor me based on jealousy and insecurity, to you, the man I have loved who brought me down with hurt, to you, I present this song.

A concoction of my attitude towards life, penchant for nudism and modelling, gay pride elements and a seductive beat, this unapologetic expression of self-identity crystallises all I want to convey to you naysayers into a nice little package and is my perfect Mardi Gras anthem.

"Are you looking at me?"

[Are You Looking At Me]

When it's time to show
My inhibition's out the window
In front of the flashlight
That's where I call my home
I'm all exposed

Do you think that I care what you want, what you think
What the fuck
In your face, I will shout, I'll be loud and be proud
You can never tear me down
You're just a hurt little boy with a big, big mouth
You might think I'm the devil in Armani, you'd be right
I'm too huge, you can't take it sitting down
I don't care, waste your breath, knock yourself out if you want
'Cos it's time for my close-up and I'll show you how it's done

Are you looking at me
Do you like what you see now
Tell me how I can please
And not just be a tease
Don't stop looking at me

Peel away my clothes
Till there is nothing left but my soul
And I'm standing right in front of all your eyes
How can you say no

I'm a man, I need love, I want sex, I don't beat around the bush
Add drama to some bullshit, that's crap and you know it
Don't try to drag me down, that's not the way I wanna live
I'm a realist, I'm a dreamer, I'm all hard logic
Can't you see we're all different, so let me run with it
Do chill, relax, I'm naked, nothing up my sleeves

Are you looking at me
Am I all that you dream of
There's a fire in me
Burning out of my reach
Can you put it out please now

This is my first-ever attempt at writing in this genre so please be kind in your comments. Happy Mardi Gras! And no more bad luck for me this year please!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Going West (3)

It's official. I have been deemed too sexy for Facebook and they have decided to take down my profile. But then again I have prepared myself for that as I have mentioned in my last post. With this new profile, I have really streamlined my list of friends so if you have been re-included in it, you know you occupy a special place in my heart.

In response to me being thumbed down by Facebook for simply being myself, I feel that these last pictures from my shoot with West Phillips do not adequately express what I feel inside for this rejection actually made me believe in myself more than ever. Short of showing Facebook the finger, I have written a song that summarizes exactly what I want to tell the world at this point in my life. Stay tuned for it, it is going to be great fun.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Going West (2)

As promised, this is the second of three posts with pictures from my recent West Phillips shoot. By the way, 3 of these pictures have been taken down by Facebook (each with a warning, the last of which I was forced to acknowledge before I could log on) and so there must be some people from my friends list whingeing about them. Since I will never know who they are, I have taken the precautionary measure of taking 23 of them down. And then I uploaded those pictures again and so far so good. But if you do not see me on Facebook for some time, you will know that I have been banned from the social network. I am willing to take that risk in the name of art. Hehe.

PS: If you haven't grabbed a copy of the latest DNA magazine, go get it! I was told by a friend in the business that this is the Mardi Gras issue and will get lots of exposure. He assured me that bigger things will come my way so fingers crossed! A little secret–I am featured in not only one place in this issue!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Going West (1)

You may or may not know by now that DNA magazine has used the pictures from my shoot with West Phillips for my cruise-site racism story. I was beyond stoked when I got the news. Imagine seeing myself in a double-page spread-opener (and then some) in one of the more popular gay magazine in the world in just a few days' time! Of course much credit goes to West, who recently told me that he is going to push for more Asian representation in the magazine. Damn right! We need to start somewhere and create the demand for Asian models and so I think this entire project would be a very good first step. I am glad that I am part of this small progression towards the ideal the gay Asian community is striving for.

By the way, the underwear required for this shoot was provided the night before at a house party of an underwear-line owner when I lamented that I did not have any good underwear (as a person who does not wear any). Talk about perfect timing–the racist incident, the shoot, the underwear from the party, and DNA wanting to write the story. The universe is certainly wanting this to happen!

The shoot took place near Redfern train station in the abandoned section of Carriage Works. There were straight topless skaters right in front of us that afternoon and come to think of it, it was a slight turn-on that I was being watched all this time. The photographer really liked the location and returned subsequently with other models. It was just too bad that it started to rain before we could explore further. Thankfully I had another opportunity to work with West in a second shoot with two other Asian models–watch out for that!

This whole Carriage Works series will be split into three separate posts starting from this one. Enjoy.

PS: I will be one of the models featured in this exhibition and it opens today. If you are free, do come down and see me in all my naked glory!