It seems like my blog posts these days are a running update of the COVID-19 crisis and it'd be interesting to look back at these posts when this is all over to see how well I coped. So in the name of updates, Melbourne went into Stage 4 lockdown on 2nd August i.e. you can only go out for essential reasons and there's also a nightly curfew between 8pm to 5am. I rarely venture out at night during normal times anyway let alone during a pandemic so that doesn't really affect me.
One gripe I have is I didn't manage to get a haircut before the 6-week lockdown so it'll surely not look pretty come 13th September. Also, seeing that I've completed "Ghost of Tsushima" yesterday, I really need another thing to keep me occupied. I hope my impulse online purchase of an LED face mask on the same day I finished the game won't mean that online shopping is the thing that will fill the gap!
On the work front, I managed to manoeuvre myself out of a project that I know will be very stressful due to unreasonable client requirements and poor project management. Although I'm very happy with that move, the flip side is a possible work vacuum when my existing project winds down. I'll know the end date of the job I'm currently leading next week and then I'll be the first to ask my boss to put me in the queue for more work. Importantly, I hope the company restructuring that's taking place now will not hinder this.
OK, I'm done with updates. Now it's time for this month's musical post which is a Mandarin piece I penned called "自私" or "Selfishness". Through this song I want to emphasise that "unconditional love" is a myth, which is something that I've felt for years. Nothing in this world happens without a reason and that includes love.
Be it giving or receiving love, it's always done to satiate a need or to fill a void and hence these acts are selfish. The closest to unconditional love in my opinion would be a parent's love for his or her child. It's almost unconditional but if you delve deeper, you'll realise it's still conditional. Try using the "five whys" approach on this i.e. repeatedly ask why and you'll very likely get to the root of the issue within five whys. Let me know how you go!
[自私]
词 / 曲 : 锦泉
爱一个人是种自私的游戏
像饮食寝居的需要， 像呼吸
最初与最终都想着满足自己
只不过是场捉迷藏
觅寻想被爱的人而已
被一个人爱是种自私的玩意
不是欲望而是需要， 是不得已
月出至月落盲目地粉妆自己
只不过是场歌舞剧
哭过笑过后就没关系
一个个自私作祟的心跳里
凝聚着爱情伟大的推动力
剥掉他们的心灵，只要有个躯体
人就能爱到底
终于领略到爱的真谛
但是否能共白头， 生死不离不弃
这问题你我他们都回答不起
[Selfishness]
Loving someone is nothing but a selfish game
Just like the need to eat, drink, sleep, live and breathe
From start to end, we are merely trying to satisfy ourselves
It's like hide and seek
Looking for someone who wants to be loved
Being loved by someone is nothing but a trick
Not a want but a need, and no one has a choice
From night to day we blindly make ourselves up
It's like theatre
After a cry and a laugh, we all move on
Every heartbeat haunted by selfishness
Coalesces into this mighty motivation behind love
Peel away the heart and soul
As long as there is a body
Humans will be able to love till the end
And that is the final appreciation of its true meaning
But whether or not we can grow old together
And stay together through life and death
Alas no one has the answer to that question
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