A month is like a lifetime in a world filled with a relentless virus capable of permeating every single facet of life and since my last post, much has happened indeed. For instance, Victoria has just recorded 28 consecutive days of no new cases which means that the virus has effectively been eliminated. Under the previous guidelines, we would have reached a state of COVID-normal and that there would be very little restrictions left, if at all.
However, the goal post has shifted and some restrictions still remain e.g. indoor establishments subjected to density quotas as well as a limit on home visitors. Although masks are no longer mandatory outdoors where social distancing can be maintained, they are still required indoors which makes my time in the gym that much harder. Fortunately I see many have their masks down to their chins and that's accepted as breathing while exercising would be difficult otherwise. Hence I simply have my nose exposed when doing weights unless someone with real BO issues come past. In that way, having a mask on can be a blessing (another glass half-full example). My exercise band and home-made dumb bells are never far away though as I know all this can be taken away from us in an instant.
I’ll never whinge about a conservative government especially seeing what a government oblivious of the suffering of its people is capable of (cue the on-his-last-few-breaths American president). That being said, I do get a little bored in the weekends now that restrictions have eased and so I'm making an effort to get out more by contacting friends to join in their activities. Frankly I'm surprised I'm unable to survive as a hermit forever and it only took a pandemic for me to realise that.
Work-wise, my patience with my current company is wearing really thin with the lack of support, leadership and oversight amidst crazy project schedules whilst working remotely. I’ve been complaining about this for the longest time and will keep doing so – if you don’t take care of the true money-makers (i.e. engineers), only the bottom-of-the-barrel crap “talent” and the foolish will stay with you. Without good people, all companies shrivel and die, and I hope this one does if it doesn’t improve its game.
Now before you accuse me of being in this category of foolish employees (I admit I have been for some years not without reason though), I need to stop you there. Although I still have both feet inside the figurative office door, they will not be for much longer. That’s if the things I’ve set in motion work out as planned. Like I mentioned in my last post, I can’t announce it formally till things are confirmed and sadly, they won’t be till at least maybe a month or two into the new year. When that happens, my wretched work life and boring non-work life will change drastically and I’m 70% sure the change will be for the better. Oh, and Ision will really enjoy the change too so it’s an absolute win-win.
One of the most effective ways I cure boredom in the weekends is to write songs and I’ve been very productive ever since I discovered this regularly-updated site filled with lots of backing tracks for lazy songwriters like me to choose from. There are lots of genres available and I'd usually pick one that suits my mood for the day. For this month's musical post, I'm presenting a piece I did when I was in the mood for a bit of fun.
In my opinion, there are too many love songs about the sorrows of loss and not enough of them celebrating the joys of loss. To me, loss is not a negative word when one is losing something that's going to cause more harm by clinging on to it. This song is about a guy moving on from a toxic relationship and sarcastically wishing his ex's new man the best of luck after finally realising that there's no point in holding on to something's that's already dead. Without the dead weight, the protagonist feels so light and free till the point he thinks he can fly, and I chose a clip that portrays this freedom.
We're approaching the last month of the year and although it's been a shitty 2020, 2021 is definitely worth looking forward to. Like the song, I know it'll be a year filled with that freedom as I celebrate the loss of a major source of anguish and pain. I love this new composition to bits and I hope you do too.
[Step Aside]
Scrolling through those happier times
Just wanna let misery seep into my life
Holding on to hope that this time
I can let it go and move right on with my life
Don't let what you see fool you
Underneath the smile I'm all blue
This wall of pain to break through
I can't but I have to
Say goodbye, don't wanna cry and miss you no more
You're not the guy, not gonna fight you anymore
Now it's time, to stop the lies and to end this war
Not looking back, I'm over you, and out the door
I don't wanna turn back time
'Cos I'm not afraid of a solitary life
Go ahead and turn off the light
A world without him no longer feels like a cold night
I can finally start anew
I'm done with your shit and with you
Can't stop him from getting screwed
So best of luck you two
On a high, like I can fly, so just let me soar
Colours so bright, not black and white and grey anymore
Tears are dry, I'll take my time to love myself more
It feels so right 'cos I'm not with you anymore
Now the weak part of me has died
And I realise what freedom is like
I will wear all these scars with pride
I'm back on my feet so step aside
Say goodbye, don't wanna cry and miss you no more
You're not the guy, not gonna fight you anymore
Now it's time, to stop the lies and to end this war
Not going back, I've blocked you now, so please don't call me anymore
On a high, like I can fly, so just let me soar
Colours so bright, not black and white and grey anymore
Tears are dry, I'll take my time to love myself more
I feel so light 'cos you're not in me anymore
