Friday, August 29, 2025

Musical journey (180)

 
 
That is the climactic line of the new composition I am sharing today. In this story, a man becomes spellbound by another and tries desperately to get his attention. He hits a brick wall and soon realises that he is contending with an expert, one impeccably schooled in the art of leading people on with fleeting crumbs. The target is enjoying his time playing hard to get.

The ensuing chase becomes increasingly arduous, but it only makes the pursuer more determined, all while keeping his cerebral demons under control. Like voodoo, he falls under time and time again, and swears that they both will soon get what they deserve. And come one fateful night, the growing temptation that has been ticking away with every deafening beat of his heart finally reaches its breaking point.
 
Emerging from the darkness, like on autopilot, he acts out the script that has rehearsed itself incessantly deep within. In that split second of hypnotic frenzy, the white noise ceases, as hate and love merge into a single entity, rushing to the tip of every nerve, arriving to his end. It is done.

PS: I've been bingeing on "Dexter: Resurrection", which explains the above sexual-predatory and serial-killery angle. Still, please try to enjoy the song though. 😃


[Voodoo]

Written By: Kim

Why do I feel blue
What am I to do
God do I want to
Get into your heart
Get deep inside you

If only you knew
How much I need you
Please let me get through
Why do you have to be so cruel

Is this voodoo
Got me subdued
And I can't move
Wanna go but boy I really love the view

'Cos this is hoodoo
And you got my head so screwed
Gotta choose between what's good for you
And this beautiful taboo

You must be amused
When you see me abused
That poison you ooze
Slowly killing me the more I use

Why am I confused
There's nothing to lose
There's no more excuse
That sex appeal so real I can't refuse

Is this voodoo
Or black magic that you've let loose
Cast your spell
The more I move, the more I bruise

'Cos this is hoodoo
And you gently tighten the noose
I'm a tool that you use
I'd be a fool to lose my cool and stop you

Raw and nude
Yet satisfaction overdue
You seduce then preclude
I'm not in the mood
Tonight I'm gonna go all out so fuck the rules

Is this voodoo
It got me subdued
And I can't move
Wanna go but boy I really love the view

'Cos this is hoodoo
And you got my head so screwed
Gotta choose between what's good for you
And this fucking beautiful taboo

Is this voodoo
Or black magic that you've let loose
Cast your spell
The more I move, the more I bruise

'Cos this is hoodoo
And you gently tighten the noose
I'm a tool you use
I'd be a fool to lose my cool
And stop you

This is voodoo
Or is this hoodoo
It's taboo
Thank you

This is voodoo
Or is this hoodoo
It's taboo
And I really wanna thank you
 




Sunday, July 27, 2025

Musical journey (179)

I'm now almost two weeks into Rotation #25. This is an interesting (and uncertain) time as the business unit undergoes significant changes (for efficiency gains a.k.a. cost-cutting). Usually, I'll be the first to whinge about this but I think this time, the changes are for the better, as some moves are a precursor to letting some of the fat-cat expats go (they are the ones that constantly get on my nerves). Although this will not be communicated officially, from what I've heard from the grapevine, I believe this is part of upper management's grand plan. So fingers crossed they will be gone by the end of the year.

Talking about being employed in a foreign land, I've written about life in Papua New Guinea as a fly-in/fly-out (FIFO) worker over the years but my last two posts (here and here) went in-depth and provided a clearer picture of the everyday struggles of PNG citizens based on my experience. Because I live in company-provided accommodation in a secured compound, I'm not in a position to post media about what goes on when I'm on site, but this month's musical offering is an exception.

As you know, I spare no chances to perform in front of people as that's my passion. I was supposed to sing at the Christmas party two years ago but due to a significant upset in the processing plant that temporarily halted production, the celebration was muted and I didn't get the chance to perform. Due to our fixed rotation, my back-to-back and I spend alternate Christmases on site, so fast forward two years, I grabbed this opportunity to sing.

Below is my live cover of Lonestar's "I'm Already There" using a standard karaoke track from YouTube. The clip was taken at the Refinery I supported after we had our Christmas dinner buffet with colleagues and contractors present. I'd have preferred a key lower but we didn't have that luxury (the wireless microphone wasn't great either). Because everyone missed their family back home especially during Christmas, this song struck a chord with my audience. I was later told that some people even cried which meant that my voice really touched them. Although them dropping tears was not much of a surprise to me, it was a huge surprise for them that I could actually sing this well.

Before Christmas in July officially ends, I hope you enjoy this Christmas performance, but you'd have to pardon the parts where I forgot the words—I didn't have the lyrics in front of me as that wasn't a karaoke session!



 

Friday, June 27, 2025

Musical journey (178)

27th of June this year is a very special day because it' my Mum's 80th birthday! Too bad I can't be there with her to celebrate this great personal milestone. The best I can do is to dedicate this month's composition to her. This song also serves as a constant reminder for myself to remember to call (and also visit) her more often.

We get so busy with our lives and tend to neglect those we love, especially when long distances activate this "out of sight, out of mind" mentality. Sometimes it's even subconscious, so we all need prompts from time to time. With this song, I hope you can think of those you treasure and give them a ring to let them know that you miss and love them. Remember to call home OK? Let me now go and do just that.

I love you Mummy. 生日快乐! 



[记得打电话回家]

词 / 曲 : 锦泉

在挥手的剎那
放不开也得放下
电视就让他开着
角落洗衣篮空着
房门背后不再吵杂

人在异乡的游子终于懂得妈妈的伟大
把眼泪湿透的照片擦一下
明天再想念他

要记得打电话回家
别让她添多些白发
过马路要看车
若天气变凉了
外套你不想穿也一定要带着

要记得打电话回家
就算你人远在天涯
无论在忙什么
也千万别忘了
用你的声音把妈妈拥抱着

要记得打电话回家
不要不听妈妈的话
水不能够少喝
剩菜要多加热
不在你身旁但还是要你快乐

要记得打电话回家
不然她会担心害怕
一个人的时刻
总是特别冷的
用你的声音让妈妈温暖着

电话里的爱装得满满的
用你的声音把妈妈拥抱着



[Remember to Call Home]

Written By: Kim
 
When we waved goodbye
We had to let go even when we didn't want to
Leave the TV on
That laundry basket at the corner left empty
There's no more noise behind your room's door

Children who have left for a foreign land
Finally understanding how selfless their mothers are
Wiping the tears off the photos of her child
Only to miss them all over again tomorrow

You must remember to call home
Don't add to her white hair
Look out for cars when crossing the road
When the weather turns cold
Even if you don't need a jacket, do still take it with you

You must remember to call home
Even when you're so far away
No matter how busy you are
Don't ever forget to
Use your voice to embrace your mother

You must remember to call home
And always listen to your mother
Drink more water
Reheat your leftovers sufficiently
Though she's not by your side
She still wants you to be happy

You must remember to call home
Otherwise she'll worry and be scared
When alone
It always feels colder
So use your voice to keep your mother warm

Pack that phone call to the brim with love
And use your voice to embrace your mother




Saturday, June 14, 2025

PNG woes (part 2)

 


I'm still in Rotation #24 but it's nearing the end. So let me continue with part 2 of this "PNG woes" post based on what I've observed all these years working in PNG (6 years and counting). Part 1 can be found here. Here are the some more of the common problems PNG nationals encounter that affect their performance at work and my time with the them.


3. Extremely High Cost-of-Living
If you think Aussies pay too much taxes, you're not informed well enough because although the taxation rate in PNG is roughly the same as Australia (used to be higher than Australia), wages can be up to 10 times lower and everyday goods like fresh groceries in the capital city are more expensive than Australia even after currency conversion. This is only getting worse with growing inflation. Believe it or not, I was told that even if the company wants to increase their salaries, they cannot because the PNG government has policies that keep wages within a uniform band across companies of a certain sector. Without delving into labour regulations, I can't vouch for the truth of that statement though. What I can do is listen to my operators' woes when they pour them onto me from every possible angle. Apart from lending my ears and on top of my day job of being the lead engineer ensuring safe and optimised operations, I coach and impart the local workforce within my production team with both hard and soft skills so they can be better-equipped to rise up the ladder and earn more that way. That's all I can do within my power. They're aware of unions in some of the company's Australian assets but they are not mature and united enough to explore that in any concrete fashion, to their disadvantage obviously.

As a result of this financial strife, they are forced to hustle more creatively. On site, to make ends meet, this "creativity" would take the form of a hyperactive overtime system i.e. people stay more than their 4 weeks so they can get double pay. The justification for overtime can sometimes be based on the flimsiest of reasons, but managers tend to close an eye to that because they all know the underlying struggles. Maybe they have done their numbers and concluded that this is still cheaper than hiring more people. Off site, they could be running other businesses (legit or otherwise - I have an operator who pimps out 5 girls that he "takes care of"). Hell, I was duped into importing goods from Australia. You see, I thought I was buying stuff for his personal use and once I realised he was reselling the clothing items with a markup, I told him I'm not going to help him again, but that didn't stop this operator from pestering me every now and then. By the way, thanks to PNG's "Australian heritage", they are crazy for R.M. Williams (much like Hermès to Asians).

4. Poor Health
Because fresh food is so expensive, and if people don't grow their own (e.g. if they live in the cities), the consequent reliance on unhealthy but cheaper processed and canned food leads to poor health outcomes. They are so conditioned to eating canned food that many of my operators choose canned corned beef over fresh steaks cooked in the mess. Why? It's all due to supply and demand working its magic. A 340g tin of corned beef now costs PGK$18.40 in PNG i.e. almost AUD$7 which is more expensive than what we get from Coles. Canned corned beef is now a luxury food item and that's PNG for you. I'll not elaborate on betel nut consumption here (you can watch this video if you're keen to know more), but suffice to say, years of betel nut chewing have killed their taste buds. Hence, without even tasting the food first, they have to add a copious amount of salt to make the already quite savoury food served on site more palatable. I've even seen people unscrewing the lid and pouring salt straight onto their meals, and we all know the harmfulness of an excessively high sodium diet.

In a country where modern medical help doesn't usually reach the masses in time because of how remote the many scattered villages can be (one of which is pictured above), it's no wonder the PNG demographic is so young (life expectancy is around 65 i.e. almost 20 years shy of Australia's). A few months ago, one of my operators died on site from cardiovascular complications and even though he didn't get the level of medical attention we're used to in the developed world, he would have gotten much worse had he been back home. I wrote about how Billy's death affected me in this post. Since that event, whenever my operators tell me they're feeling unwell with similar symptoms, I get edgy and start worrying.

5. Self-Inflicted Problems
Yes, sometimes their problems are basically of their own doing. Recently, one of my operators filmed himself in uniform going for a joyride to off-limit areas chewing betel nut (which is banned on site), and then uploading the clip on Tiktok, and HR caught wind of that. That particular operator was given many warnings before for various behavioral problems and was even demoted once, but he was never let go, and perhaps that's why he got so daring. We're so short-staffed and since they are so "cheap" to keep anyway, it seems on the surface to not be a big deal retaining them. However, they are a bad influence on others, especially impressionable apprentices, and so should be sacked as soon as possible (and not just moved to another facility).

Also, much of the local workforce resides in villages where they can live on the land and so their day job is only there to earn extra money for "luxuries" which they can give up any time (and then go back to farming). The peanuts they get paid compared to the high taxation and inflation add further fuel to the blaze. With that attitude, you can imagine how motivated they are to continue delivering at the required level and how a non-issue it is to get fired. Fortunately, that guy has since been removed from site (he was not only a poor performer, he has crossed me once by playing me against another person so he'll never get my trust ever again - that's a whole different story for next time. So good riddance). He now sits in a limbo "suspended" state as HR takes forever to do everything, including finding a replacement. This means that we all have to chip in to cover. We're currently short of 2 to 3 operator back-to-back roles (meaning 4 to 6 bodies) and with cost-cutting in full swing, do you think those positions will be replaced? I can almost hear management shouting down from high up "welcome to the new norm!".


I can go on and on about PNG (this 2-part post has gone far longer than originally planned), but before I get too carried away, I'd like to stress that this is not a whinge-fest and certainly not a move to disparage PNG people in any way. I've struck what I'd call a perfect balance with them on and off work i.e. we have real love for one another. For starters, I'm totally out to them and we can even crack off-colour gay jokes together (bear in mind that PNG is 96% Christian and extremely conservative). That's because they knew me as a person before they knew me as gay. In addition to the genuine glow in their eyes whenever they see me come back on shift, and taking me out for drinks in Port Moresby when they're on break, they tell me things that they don't divulge to other expatriates (and sometimes even their own). That's how I know for sure they'll have my back if and when I need support.

I always say that PNG is a totally unique place where people can be friendly and violent in the same measure. Yes, it's not a safe place, but I hate it when people are plainly negative about this country and its people without proper context and knowledge e.g. the doom and gloom warnings they put out for visitors sans the human element. If you're born in that environment, who is to say you'll be different? It's all about survival and I fully understand that. Hence, from a 100% non-judgemental position, I'm committed to helping them improve their lives (within limits). That's how I earn their trust and respect and that's also the source of energy pushing me to keep doing what I do.

I don't need to tell you how tough rotational work in those parts can be, but I'm truly enjoying myself there and that's mainly because of the PNG people and their interesting stories (and the obvious fact that I'm paid at a level I'm contented with). At work, we always break into random bursts of laughter and then huddle back together to face the challenges that pile on. There's never a dull moment. If you've not lived in PNG or amongst PNG folk for a significant period, you'll never grasp how one-of-a-kind this place and its people are.

Saturday, May 31, 2025

Musical journey (177)

I've written a lot of songs these few years about drug use knowing full well that to many, there's a fine control line between "recreation" and "abuse". My definition of "abuse" is a level of consumption needed for one to simply function normally. We also know that the more easily available the drug of choice, the more unclear this line becomes. Case in point—alcohol.
 
Alcohol is the drug that kills the most people globally and continues to kill every second. There aren't many drugs in the world that hardcore addicts can't go "cold turkey" on their road to recovery or else they will die, and these are opiods (heroin, fentanyl), benzodiazepine (Valium, Xanax) and yes, alcohol. And we're not even talking about the most addictive drug in the world—nicotine (which has gotten worse with vaping, not better).
 
Talking about addiction, governments are hooked on the tax revenue from alcohol, and coupled with it being synonymous with social recreation, the problems associated with this drug become impossible to eradicate. Hence, we've evolved over eons to see deaths caused by or related to alcohol consumption as inevitable, much like how upholders of the American Second Amendment view deaths from mass shootings.
 
Now, is that cavalier perspective on the harm caused by alcohol right or wrong? And should your answer to that question change when we switch the drug to one that causes less deaths i.e. any of the so-called "hard drugs" e.g. methamphetamine, cocaine, etc.? Life is never black and white and so we don't need to wear tinted glasses to add more colour to this world (there's a Chinese saying "戴有色眼镜" which literally translates to "wearing tinted glasses" and it means "to have a prejudiced viewpoint").

This month's musical journey is all about drowning one's sorrows with alcohol. I often wonder does that even work? I know drugs deepen the state of mind one is in at the point of intake, so wouldn't you feel sadder when you're already down before you start drinking? Nevertheless, people do it all the time despite alcohol being a depressant because humans are irrational beings.
 
Interestingly, although we're all aware that "driving under the influence" is bad, we seldom think about "drinking under the influence". This new composition with a rock/metal theme (a genre I only dabble in occasionally) explores the very concept of drinking your problems away which I'm certain is something you or someone you know have done, so I'd love to hear your thoughts on this topic, after listening to the song of course.


[D. U. I.]

Written By: Kim

This is not what I deserve
But that's not stopping you
So go on, do your worst

Shake me off, I'm just like dirt
You don't relent
And I know that
But I refuse to learn

Push me, I crack
'Cos your strength I lack
It doesn't take much to see tears gush
Right out of a man

The weaker I get
Your mind gets more set
I get lost at the exit door
Why can't I catch a breath

Got nowhere to turn
And so I'm back here
Drinking under influence

You have got to earn
The right to be here
There's a three-heartbreak at the minimum

Like a numbing heartburn
Memories linger here
They go down only to return

Pictures of us I preserve
Can't let go, they haunt me
Lock me in a curse

To heal, you need to first be hurt
Then I'd be spent
So here I drench away the bitterness

I must be mad
When I play pretend
That I ain't crushed
That I can last
Right until the end

Panic attacks
But don't let me hit back
That line I've crossed
Made you change your course
It's too late to regret

Got nowhere to turn
And so I'm back here
Drinking under influence

You have got to earn
The right to be here
There's a three-heartbreak at the minimum

Like a numbing heartburn
Memories linger here
They go down only to return

Hit me with affliction
I need this addiction
Give me pain unreserved
Quench my fucking thirst

Got nowhere to turn
And so I'm back here
Drinking under influence

You have got to earn
The right to be here
There's a three-heartbreak at the minimum

Like a numbing heartburn
Memories linger here
Please go down
And never to return
 




Sunday, May 18, 2025

PNG woes (part 1)



This is my last weekend at home before Rotation #24 commences and I already know that I'm going into this hitch with some really gnarly problems waiting for me as I still get messages from work chats on Microsoft Teams during my break. Well, it's business as usual really... Whenever I use the word "crazy" to describe my time in PNG, I'm not only referring to actual issues with valves, tanks, pumps, heat exchangers, pipelines, compressors, etc. (the list goes on), I'm also talking about troubles that have to do with people (both expatriates and locals).
 
 
For expatriates, the thing that can be problematic is typically their laziness. Through countless restructuring (the most significant one being the acquisition of my ex-company a few years ago), people become tucked into organisational blind spots and accountabilities get eroded. Those out to milk this would do so to the maximum possible level and if the entire reporting line behaves like that or remote supervision becomes ineffective (it usually is), this can go unnoticed at the management level for years. I notice it on the ground everyday though, and that's one of my pet peeves that irks me to no end.

Alas, it'll be better now that "value-adding" initiatives are going to cut to the bone this year (purportedly 40 or so million dollars need to be cut from PNG alone in 2025) and the first wave of expatriates purging has already taken place in the name of "enhancing effic


iency". For once, I'm willing to drink to that. A PNG national told me sometime ago that certain expatriates can be so tone-deaf that they talk loudly (almost bragging) about the "mundane" things they do over their weekends/holidays (e.g. yachting) around locals that they know are struggling to make ends meet. I say it's about bloody time we remove all these obnoxious dead weights.

As for the local workforce, their issues are much more complicated. Compared to my words, here's a video that can give you a far better context behind the life people in PNG are accustomed to. Although that's an old documentary and on some level, things have improved (e.g. road infrastructure) but some things have gone downhill (e.g. tribal wars have become more extreme with a greater influx of guns into the country). At the 45:20 mark, you'll see Moro. In the show, they referred to Moro being where the oil drilling site was i.e. this was in the 90's when the facility was still with its original owners (Chevron). I feel especially connected to the documentary because Moro is where the air strip is, the air strip on which I land and from which I depart every 28 days. After you've watched the video for background, let me talk about some of the common problems the PNG nationals face that impact on work and my relationship with the them.

1. Being Distracted at Work
Often, the locals have terrible events happening back home when on shift, some of which are unimaginable to people who live in developed or more civilised countries. For instance, my operator had his house burnt down due to tribal warfare and another operator had a child injured by a stray bullet during one of those skirmishes. At the worst, they have to take emergency leave to deal with those problems and then we have to scramble to back fill them. When we all have a specific role to play supporting the live facility that makes the company the most money, this becomes a great challenge and usually results in me having to assess the risks of not doing some work or doing something else instead.

Domestic violence is also extreme in PNG. I once heard that a husband instructed his wife not to let the pigs at home escape and the wife failed to do that. As punishment, he cut off her ears and put a spear into her leg! This was something a colleague actually "witnessed". Gruesome? Yes. Abnormal? No. A focussed mind is paramount in the oil and gas industry as we're dealing with hazards that can kill multiple people in an instant. With such issues to worry about back home, how can they not lose concentration especially when performing routine tasks? Hence, my role (amongst many others) is to be extra vigilant and watch what they do with a second pair of eyes.
 
2. Getting Offended & Acting On Impulse Too Easily
In short, they take things too personally and as a result, they get into all sorts of shenanigans on site ranging from fist fights over disagreements to romantic affairs and all the fun repercussions of jealousy and sabotage that come with such rivalries. Even being mindful of basic things like email/corporate-etiquette is a tall task for some of them e.g. two of my operators who were unhappy with their performance ranking sent a complaint email on separate occasions straight to HR and cc'ed the manager 3 levels above them, without discussing with their immediate lead first. A lot of these problems are hidden i.e. the workplace is literally a minefield with very unhappy people (and worse still, some of them are out to get you), so you always have to take greater care when communicating to those you're not that close to.

In addition, in a predominantly patriarchal society, they find it really hard to take commands from female leaders unless they have grown together through the ranks from bottom up. To make matters even more "exciting", there are people who game the system (think along the lines of females accusing males of sexual harassment when innocuous flirting that started well goes awry). All these human problems need to be dealt with by the team leads which essentially take them away from the actual work of removing hydrocarbons from the ground and selling it. And no prizes for guessing correctly who picks up the slack.
 
 
I have more to write on this topic, so there is a part 2 to this (here). Now, let me go enjoy my last bit of doing nothing before madness starts.

Saturday, April 26, 2025

Musical journey (176)

It's my third day back after Rotation #23 and this break, I'm going to take it really easy as I've had too much "excitement" with the Singapore flu trip. I've since picked up all the weight lost during that bout of illness but I don't care, and that's how chill I want my next 3 or so weeks to be. I'll share some of the pics from that trip soon.

What I'll do during this time though is join Uber One, play "Split Fiction" with Ision, start watching "The Last of Us (Season 2)" and go yum cha. Sounds immensely boring? As you grow older, you will realise that relaxing "me time" is truly priceless. This is especially so because of my "day job" where I have to constantly deal with people, hence I need 4 weeks of not doing that for every 4 weeks of being inflicted with them.

My life right now may seem unbearably plain to some, but if that's my choice, who's to say that's not the perfect life? Just like this month's musical post, it's all about acceptance of reality and living your life happy knowing that you did it your way. In this composition, even though walking away from a break-up is tough, when your mind is made up, you can leave easy, and anything your ex does will make no difference.

If you ask me, that's how all of you should live your lives.



[没差]

词 / 曲 : 锦泉

醒不来  睁不开  眼睛最好没哭坏
这样算不算失败
说实在  早就该离开  没结局的偶像剧谁爱
演来演去还没完  无法再瞎掰

钟摆  动得越来越厉害
一分一秒地在看我能忍耐
你的借口多久不被憋坏
不能继续再依赖
你的不理不睬  我的置身事外
It is time to say goodbye

心已麻木啦  人不管在哪  都没差
你也放下吧  不用再害怕  再装傻
我的那些衣服还留在你家
要回去拿还是不拿
都没差

醒不来  睁不开  眼睛最好没哭坏
这样算不算失败
说实在  早就该离开  没结局的偶像剧谁爱
演来演去还没完  无法再瞎掰

钟摆  动得越来越厉害
一分一秒地在看我能忍耐
你的借口多久不被憋坏
不能继续再依赖
你的不理不睬  我的置身事外
It is time to say goodbye

早已太迟啦  要留或放下  都没差
再拖拖拉拉  互相残杀  不是办法
只要下一次遇见能不尴尬
就算被你斥被你骂
都没差

鼓起勇气  分手吧
说对不起  就够啦
好一点对他  多一点爱他
最后这滴泪才能蒸发  
这样才潇洒

心已麻木啦  人不管在哪  都没差
劝你还是放弃吧  不用再害怕  再装傻
我的那些衣服还留在你家
要回去拿还是不拿
都没有差

早已太迟啦  要留或放下  都没差
再这样拖拖拉拉  互相残杀  不是办法
只要下一次遇见能不尴尬
就算被你斥被你骂
都没差



[No Difference]

Written By: Kim
 
Can't wake
Can't open my eyes
They better not be damaged with all the crying
Does this count as failure
Honestly speaking
Should have left a long time ago
No one loves soap operas with no ending
Lots of never-ending acts
With nothing left to bullshit

The pendulum starting to swing more vigorously
Every minute and second
Finding out how long I can tolerate
Your excuses before I suffocate
We should stop depending on
Your cold shoulder
And my going on as if nothing is wrong
It is time to say goodbye

When the heart is numb
There is no difference where I am
You should let go too
So as not to be afraid
And you do not have to pretend anymore
Those clothes still left at yours
Whether or not I go get them
No longer makes any difference

Can't wake
Can't open my eyes
They better not be damaged with all the crying
Does this count as failure
Honestly speaking
Should have left a long time ago
No one loves soap operas with no ending
Lots of never-ending acts
With nothing left to bullshit

The pendulum starting to swing more vigorously
Every minute and second
Finding out how long I can tolerate
Your excuses before I suffocate
We should stop depending on
Your cold shoulder
And my going on as if nothing is wrong
It is time to say goodbye

It has long been too late
So whether you stay or leave
Makes no difference
Continuing to drag on
And harming each other
Is not the way out
As long as it is not awkward the next time we meet
You can scold me for all you want
As it makes no difference

Pluck up the courage to break-up
Just you saying sorry is enough
Treat him better
And love him more
Only then can my last teardrop vaporise
This way I can leave easy

When the heart is numb
There is no difference where I am
My advice is for you to give this up
So as not to be afraid
And you do not have to pretend anymore
Those clothes still left at yours
Whether or not I go get them
No longer makes any difference

It has long been too late
So whether you stay or leave
Makes no difference
Continuing to drag on like this
And harming each other
Is not the way out
As long as it is not awkward the next time we meet
You can scold me for all you want
As it makes no difference




Sunday, March 30, 2025

Musical journey (175)

It's my 4th day back in PNG for rotation #23. Remember I said I was going to spend 2 weeks in Singapore? I ended up contracting flu and suffered badly for most of my time back home. I didn't get to do all the things I wanted like eating delicious food (durian, popiah, Indian rojak, etc), catching up with friends, topless KTV recording, and the list goes on.

The blessing in disguise was that I got to spend much time with Mummy at home as she took care of me with yummy food that I grew up with and motherly TLC. To spend time with her was the main aim of the trip anyway right? Well, I guess better luck next trip which will likely be Chinese New Year 2026 (I haven't bought my air tickets yet).

When I got to PNG and weighed myself, I was shocked to find out that I lost 3kgs (my uniform pants feel so loose now!). I couldn't stick to my workout routines as I was quite sick and so I've also lost much of my cardiovascular stamina and muscular strength which I'll have to slowly rebuild in the gym over the next few weeks. 

I still have some photos that I can share from my Singapore trip in future posts though, as I still got to do some fun things at the start when the flu symptoms haven't kicked in fully (when self-medicating was still fine), and towards the end when I started recovering. I still have a lingering (slight) cough which is annoying.

As I finish kicking this flu out of my body, let me present this month's musical offering. It's a live cover I did at The Laird (gay leather bar in Melbourne) of one of my favourite songs from Elton John called "The Last Song". This is the soundtrack to the movie "And the Band Played On", an HIV-themed movie/documentary I watched very early on in my gay journey. With PrEP so readily available these days, it's hard to imagine life back then when HIV was literally a death sentence. For that, I feel really fortunate to be born in this age.

More importantly, the "father and son" aspect of this song really touched me back then when I was desperately craving fatherly love. That was the time I had a long-term relationship with Greg whom I've sung this song many times to. He must be having the time of his life in heaven right now (read more about Greg and I here).

This song will have a special place in my heart forever and I'm stirred up every time I sing it. Hope you'll enjoy this cover.



 

Friday, February 28, 2025

Musical journey (174)

It's my second full day back home and I'm glad the weather has turned slightly cooler. Well, I'm heading off to Singapore for two weeks very soon, so I guess I can't avoid stifling heat for much longer anyway. I've been so stressed this past hitch at work and so sick of people, especially those not doing what they were employed to do (and they are the expensive expats, mind you)! 2025 will be an aggressive cost-cutting year for the company and I SO hope they all get cut off by December! I now have a few weeks to temporarily forget this pet peeve of mine and try to enjoy my time off. It usually takes a few days for me to start totally relaxing and I'm slowly getting there.

February is coming to an end and I wonder how you've spent your Valentine's Day. I used to detest this Hallmark holiday like a lot of people, but as I catch up with maturity, I've come to realise that Valentine's Day is just another available tool couples have in their chest to enhance their relationships. In this age of instant gratification where everything is made to be disposable and obsolete by design, boy do we need more tools than ever to give us a boost in this journey. And no, unless you're attached to an android, no amount of sophisticated A.I. can help you there.

Regardless of how much people deny it, all long-term relationships (straight, gay or everywhere in between) go through the "itchy" phase at some point and how you deal with that is how you're going to make or break them. You can be all jealous while cheating yourself (or having thoughts of cheating) and cling desperately onto the moral high horse you're almost falling off from, or you can be honest about it and achieve a mutual understanding that works for everyone involved (usually in the form of open relationships). We're all adults and we need to behave like logical adults, even in matters of the heart.

This month's musical offering is all about the "seventh year itch". In this new composition, both parties have acted on the itch but don't know for sure their partner has done it or not. They both fervently but secretly hope that the other person has, as that means that happiness, no matter how short-lived or sordid they perceive it to be, has been found. Not everyone can easily or painlessly leave a long-term relationship (like when spawn is in the picture), and so although their love story is imperfect, they are still working hard at making it last. And you all should too. Because only when a balanced compromise is attained can you truly stop itching (and hopefully not because you're already numb!).



[七年不痒]

词 / 曲 : 锦泉

心跳无意识地波动
不定不安不受控
呼吸颤抖着孤单
指尖挑逗着贪婪
黑夜有谁能来相伴

脑海里犹豫的冲动
互相抵触想也想不通
是你不羁的浪漫
还是寂寞已泛滥
感情总有一天会变淡

七年之痒敲动心房
叫我怎抵挡
回音里找温暖,我再也不想
面对这四面墙

七年不痒不是妄想
爱过的心已死亡
饥饿地,无奈地,焦躁地渴望
一个吻也觉得勉强

莫名奇妙的蠢蠢欲动
神智不清搞也搞不懂
你倒不怎么好看
我也没特别喜欢
想任性地跟理性作战

七年之痒错乱方向
有谁能阻挡
小心地,放纵地,哀怨地盼望
你瞧我这模样

七年不痒不算夸张
忍耐成了信仰
希望这次值得后悔的一尝
被囚禁的能得到释放
希望你侥幸地也和我一样
一起骚着七年之痒


[Seventh Year (Without) Itch]

Written By: Kim
 
Heartbeats fluttering unconsciously
Unsettled and uncontrolled
Breaths trembling with loneliness
Fingertips flirting with avarice
Who can accompany the darkness of night

Hesitant impulses filling my head
Fighting each other and baffling me
Is it your unbridled romanticism
Or has loneliness become a deluge
Love will always one day become weak

The seventh year itch knocking on my heart
How can I resist it
Trying to find warmth amongst echoes
I do not want to face these four walls anymore

Seven years without itch is not wishful thinking
When the heart which once loved has died
Hungrily, reluctantly and impatiently hoping
For even that one kiss seems forced

Being tempted inexplicably
And no longer thinking straight
He is not that good-looking
And I do not like him that much
Just want to willfully fight with rationality

The seventh year itch messing up my sense of direction
Who can resist it
Cautiously, wantonly and sadly wishing
For you to look me in this state

Seven years without itch is not an exaggeration
When tolerance has become a religion
Hope this regrettable decision
Is able to release all that is imprisoned
Hope you are also like me fortunately
Together scratching this seventh year itch




Thursday, January 30, 2025

Musical journey (173)

This is my first post in 2025 and I've just started Rotation #22 in PNG and there are lots to do so this is going to be a short post. It's also day 2 of Chinese New Year and looking at the "loh hei" video below that my sister sent me, I can't help but miss my family back in Singapore, despite being really tired and stressed from work, which is typical when I've just returned to PNG from break. Well, I'll see them soon in March and I'm so looking forward to Mummy's home-cooked food (which will be heaps cheaper to prepare post-CNY too)... YUM!!!

Also below is this month's music offering which is a cover of "慢半拍" (original by China singer 薛之谦). This is a really challenging piece to sing. You can find the rest of my pink-shorts topless KTV series here: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10).

I wish you all a Happy Year of the Snake!

 


 

 

Tuesday, December 31, 2024

Musical journey (172)

Today is the last day of 2024 and is also the day I head home after Rotation #21 (I'm almost done packing in my room). I won't call this a relaxing hitch but it's not super stressful (though it had its moments). I spent a few days in Brisbane at the start for some training that I don't really need but hey, at least I get to enjoy fancy "room service" on company dime. Why the air quotes you say.... Hehe. Long story short though, I'm sorely needing a break! (* Not sore from the service *)

2024 has been somewhat a meh year but it's definitely less meh than 2023 because something significant did happen. Don't worry, it's a positive thing. Actually, come to think of it, I can only say it's a positive thing for now. We never know what will happen in the future so like they say "carpe diem" right? I'd rather see it as seizing life by its balls. Allow me to be cryptic for now until I know for certain where this is heading.

And... changing topic now. Seeing that the weather is sizzling up in Melbourne, it's time to unleash my Spanish-flavoured summer anthem which is a really fun piece. Picture yourself on a gay beach in Cabo with lots of hot men parading semi-clothed and many with huge endowments dying to pierce through sheer restraints. You walk up to the one who lights your fire and invite him to yours for some good old chemically-enhanced tumble under the sheets and ultimately all over everywhere. And somehow, that was how you found your long-term partner. Surely that can happen in real life right? Well, even if it doesn't, at least you have this song to fantasise to.

So, enjoy summer and the festivities tonight boys! I'll be sound asleep in my bed long before the ruckus (or what lay people call fireworks) begin!

[Cabo]

Written By: Kim
 
The breeze says hello
Those palm trees casting their shadows
Dancing the flamenco
Love stories yet to unfold

In this cabana with my tequila
Looking for fun this hot summer
As I'm strumming my guitar
That tight body all shimmering appears from afar

Bathed in gold, you are so beautiful
Even when the sun is low, you still glisten and glow
Why are you here all alone
Should I join you or go, let me know

I'd like to show you how I like it slow
Dripping sweat from top to toe, I just can't let you go
Oh tonight let music flow
We should both let it go, like there's no tomorrow

Oh, down it goes
I need one more shot to get bold
God wish I knew español
So this edginess doesn't show

Down by the bar with my cigar
I watch as you dazzle like a star
That chest so hard with those big arms
These naughty thoughts they just keep racing through my heart

Bathed in gold, you are so beautiful
Even when the sun is low, you still glisten and glow
Why are you here all alone
Should I join you or go, let me know

I'd like to show you how I like it slow
Dripping sweat from top to toe, I just can't let you go
Oh tonight let music flow
In the heat on the beach of Cabo

I see you wanna rock, I wanna roll
So let's blow this joint, 'cos I'm ready to take you home
Oh baby just let me get close
You have blasted me with an overdose

Come inside, I'll let you take control
For this one night only, I just wanna be your beau
Please let me get into your soul
We should both let it go, like there's no tomorrow
 




Monday, November 4, 2024

Musical journey (171)

Three days after my 46th birthday towards the end of my shift here in PNG, I can't help but recall how terrible the same day was a quarter of a century ago (gosh am I old or what). It was my 21st and how I wished I had someone to spend it with back then.

Fast forward 25 years, I've learnt to find joy in being alone. In fact, I very much prefer my own company. The last thing I want is being the centre of attention in a room filled with people I barely know. I guess being an ageing introvert, that comes as no surprise at all.

This has been tiring shift and I can't wait to pack up and leave, but before I do, let me share with you the song I wrote for myself on that sad 21st birthday (with some changes to suit the new and more modern melody). This song makes me feel fortunate that I never have to go through that emotional roller coaster again.



[生日舞会]

词 / 曲 : 锦泉

我用孤单布置了房间
让寂寞渗透乏味的空间
然后静静地等着那不会到来的惊喜
门外只藏着镜子里不愿看见的自己

我无奈地燃起二十一根白色蜡烛
被蜡烫红的双手
心也麻木了
想哭却不能哭

这热闹的生日舞会
就只有电台情歌的生日舞会
枯坐在角落
闭着眼想像
这生日本来应该是怎样

我用孤单布置了房间
让寂寞渗透乏味的空间
然后静静地等着那不会到来的惊喜
门外只藏着镜子里不愿看见的自己

我无奈地看着二十一根白色蜡烛
早已化成一滩蜡
痛也冷却了
于手掌间凝固

这热闹的生日舞会
唯一的礼物竟然就只有伤悲
我只要一个人
就那么一个人
来分享我生命的每一刻

陪我渡过这热闹的生日舞会
热闹得像蜡烛那微弱的光辉
吹灭前许愿
一切都是白费
这生日不应该是这么黑


[Birthday Party]

Written By: Kim
 
I've used loneliness to decorate the room
Allowing it to permeate this boring space
Then I waited for the surprise that will never come
Outside the door hides someone I'm unwilling to look at in the mirror

I helplessly light these twenty one white candles
My hands scalded by hot wax
With my heart numbed
I feel like crying but I cannot

This amazing birthday party
Filled with only love songs on the radio
Sitting tired on the floor
I close my eyes to imagine
What this birthday should look like

I've used loneliness to decorate the room
Allowing it to permeate this boring space
Then I waited for the surprise that will never come
Outside the door hides someone I'm unwilling to look at in the mirror

I helplessly watch these twenty one white candles
That have long melted into pool of wax
The pain has cooled down
And solidified in my palms

This amazing birthday party
With sadness as my only present
I just want one person
That one person
To share every moment of my life

To spend this amazing birthday party with me
A party as bright as the light from these flickering candles
Let me make a wish before I blow them out
Even when everything is futile
This birthday should not be this dark




Sunday, October 20, 2024

Musical journey (170)

Hello from PNG! I'm now in week two of rotation number two-oh. It's been crazy busy again here trying to get our new Refinery running perfectly while splitting myself into two running the other facility which basically is the biggest revenue-generator for the company. Sometimes I underestimate my position and importance in the company, but unfortunately upper management does the same too. But as long as they allow me to do my work without micro-managing or showering me with redundant tasks that just make them look good, I am OK.

So this will just be a quick post sharing some of my "live karaoke" singing. This one had me at the most popular men-only leather gay bar in Melbourne known as "The Laird Hotel" singing the soundtrack to my first truly-Aussie movie "Moulin Rouge". I first heard of this song when I was on a university exchange program in Sydney. Ah... that brings me back to the days when I was still with Greg. Without further ado, this is my rendition of "Come What May", and of course, I'm singing both parts. Why wouldn't I?



 

Sunday, September 29, 2024

Musical journey (169)

I didn't think much of the movie "Joker" (trailer here) when it was released but when I watched it some time after its release, I realised what a great movie it was. Joachim Phoenix won the well-deserved Best Actor Academy Award for it. I couldn't say the same about the recent winners that simply lucked out hitching a ride on the Hollywood Asian bandwagon.

Those who have ever been bullied will identify with the lead character. I can't say I've ever been the "class clown" or the "life of the party" as an introvert but I sure was bullied throughout high school and national service for being effeminate. Those five to six years severely damaged my self-esteem and it took much time to heal and recover.

I love this movie because it depicts life as not black-and-white. No one wants to be a villain and everything happens for a reason. When someone kills in a society where righteous revenge is acceptable (like in many parts of Papua New Guinea) or when someone steals to feed his starving family, who are we to judge when we haven't walked in their shoes? Do you think you will react differently or be better than them if you find yourself in exactly the same circumstances?

The sequel "Joker: Folie à Deux" (trailer here) is coming out next month and in preparation for that, I've written a Mandarin song inspired by "Joker". I seriously like this one as the words and tune are not only emotive, they fit the movie very well too. I can almost picture the song being used as the movie's official soundtrack. I've read bad reviews of the sequel which is not at all surprising because it would be really hard to do better what came before. So, have a listen to my musical offering for this month and let me know what you think!



[假笑]

词 / 曲 : 锦泉

站在街角
人群喧闹
我手舞足蹈
求你陪我拍照
天渐黑了
快和光一起枯萎掉
越来越渺小
成为城市灰暗一角

忙碌地寻找
路上一直跌倒
还没起来你又补上一脚
我只能傻笑
悲痛却没减少
只好又涂上一层鲜红的唇膏

日夜颠倒
尝尽尘嚣
却无法忘掉
初见你那一秒
就算弱小
就算世界开我玩笑
这代表至少
我还有力气为你效劳

我努力假笑
让命运再胡闹
唯一退路是往内心逃跑
蜡烛两头烧
温暖却得不到
快乐究竟它是什么味道

意志力一点一点地消耗
今晚又能否吃得饱
我志气高绝不乞讨
泪水滑下虽然留下一道
真正的自己不让你看到
咬着牙说  我还好

不停地寻找
路上一直跌倒
还没起来你又补上一脚
我只能傻笑
悲痛却没减少
快涂上一层鲜红的唇膏

我继续地假笑
让命运再胡闹
唯一退路是往内心逃跑
蜡烛两头烧
温暖却偏得不到
快乐它是什么味道

小丑他怎知道
小丑他不想笑


[Faking a Smile]

Written By: Kim
 
At the street corner
The hustle and bustle surrounds
Watch me dance
Pleading for you to take a picture with me

The sky slowly dims
As I shrivel with the light
Getting smaller
Blending into the city's dark recess

Busy searching
Keep on falling
Just when I'm trying to stand
You kick me down again
I smile sheepishly
But the sadness and pain never reduces
I can only apply another layer of crimson lipstick

Not knowing night from day
Submerged in the hubbub
I can never forget
The first time I saw you

Even though I'm feeble and small
Even though the world is playing a joke on me
That just means at least
I still have the strength to be of service to you

I try hard to fake a smile
Despite destiny messing around with me
The only way for me is to escape further into myself
Burning the candle at both ends
And still it gives me no warmth
What's the taste of happiness

My willpower is diminishing
Not sure if I'll have enough to eat tonight
My backbone is strong and I'll never beg
My tears leave behind a streak
Of the real me which I refuse to show you
Gritting my teeth, saying that I am okay

Never stopping the search
Keep on falling
Just when I'm trying to stand
You kick me down again
I smile sheepishly
But the sadness and pain never reduces
As I quickly apply another layer of crimson lipstick

I continue to try faking a smile
Despite destiny messing around with me
The only way for me is to escape further into myself
Burning the candle at both ends
But it just gives me no warmth
What's the taste of happiness

The clown will never know
The clown no longer wants to smile




Friday, August 30, 2024

Musical journey (168)

It's been a rough almost three weeks this rotation due to the death of my dear colleague Billy on the first day of him coming back on shift. He died of a heart attack despite the medical team's best efforts to resuscitate him. I was one of the last in the group to know and hence I didn't have much time to come to terms with it. So when it was mentioned in the morning shift change meeting, I just started sobbing and had to leave the room to calm myself down. For the rest of that day, I simply wasn't myself and was tearing up intermittently although distracting myself with work did help a bit. I wanted to remember him the way he was, always cheerful in life, and so I didn't go with the rest to view his body at the clinic. It was a truly sad time for the entire production team as we continue to struggle to cope with this sudden loss just three days ago. RIP Billy.

We spend half of our time with our colleagues in this FIFO arrangement and so they are just like our second family. However, I honestly didn't expect my emotions to run that strong. My boss said that's because I push myself so hard at work that such things affect me even more when I allow myself to slow down and grieve. I attended the funeral service last night and was at the airport this morning to see him off as his casket was repatriated back home. To make matters more grim, a contractor (I don't know him) collapsed the day before yesterday while working in front of my office and died on his way to the hospital! This is yet another reminder for me and all of us to treasure our loved ones and our health because nothing else really matters at the end of the day.

On the work front, I've been really busy frantically trying to bring our new Refinery online, which through my career history, is the worst project ever designed and managed. But that also means the issues I have to overcome every single hour of every single day would be good learning and training for future challenges. The break in the commissioning came on the day of Billy's death when we managed to finally draw our first product samples. He was blessing us from beyond for sure...

It's also time for this month's musical sharing, which is my cover of a song that I really like. It's "I'm Already There" from Lonestar, a number that always gets me emotional when I perform it. If you're missing your loved ones tonight, no matter where they are, living or not, as long as they are in your hearts, they are already there with you. See you all in a few weeks.


Sunday, July 28, 2024

Musical journey (167)

I'm back in Melbourne for break #18 and feeling extremely fortunate that I managed to escape the global IT outage unscathed. It would have been chaos had I flown back from PNG a few days later. 

We're inching ever closer to those global conspiracy Hollywood plots and it's not going to get any better especially when human beings become increasingly dependent on artificial intelligence. We all know that spelling and grammar have gotten worse in students ever since we had auto-correct and now people are even relying on A.I. to compose emails and complete assignments! How are these lazy people going to survive once they get into the real world?

Well, that's quite enough complaining about something that doesn't really affect me, not to mention about a phenomenon that I can't change. It's the end of July and nearing the coldest part of the year here in the Southern Hemisphere. This month's musical offering is a new composition. It's a fictitious story in which the protagonist's unrequited feelings get frozen in place by his love's cold treatment as he laments that the frigidity is almost as cold as July.


[July]

Baby, you're leaving me tongue-tied
Maybe that's because I'm so shy
You flutter your wings like a butterfly
While I stutter after saying hi

Baby, promise you I won't bite
Maybe you've been hurt by your last guy
I'll wait for you, I won't let you slip by
How could you keep making me sigh

So I say why oh why
Can't you see I've tried and tried
I won't lie, just look into my eyes that cry
They will never ever be dry

Baby, let me tell you how I'm
Crazy 'bout you 'cos you mystify
You're my equation to simplify
Into something I hope is not undefined

Baby, I don't mean to pry
Crazy is my name if I don't make you mine
What's going on in your beautiful mind
I wanna know that I can satisfy

Let me be side by side
With you, not be miles behind
I would like our stars to be aligned, entwined
Shining bright, blinded by light

Can you please don't say bye, goodbye
Part of me will die inside
I won't deny my love for you is sky-high
Still you're cold like ice
You're just like July

Oh July
My oh my
Why oh why
 



Thursday, June 27, 2024

CNY at home (part 5) / Musical journey (166)

As they say, home is where the family is and whenever I'm in Singapore, the bond I feel to my family is the strongest. Hence, I'm always inspired to write about family when I'm back home. This month's musical post is a composition about my dearest Mummy written over CNY this year.

I sang this heartfelt piece to her right after I wrote it and then in front of the rest of the family during our reunion gathering. I also sent her the clip through Whatsapp from Melbourne when I finished it. Although she didn't say much there, I think she's rather touched.

Unfortunately a few weeks ago, Mummy fractured her foot and has been staying in a community hospital to complete her recovery and physiotherapy sessions. Once she's discharged from the hospital, she'll have a domestic helper living with her to ensure she's properly taken care of when out and about, so as to avoid future injuries. My siblings and I have been actively involved in hiring the helper as mentioned in an earlier post, from contract review to interviewing candidates.

Although Mummy is ageing rapidly, I still see her as my forever superwoman. That's because we usually fail to acknowledge (knowingly or otherwise) that our parents can actually be frail or falter when the time eventually comes. Regardless, that's a cold hard fact that everyone must accept, whether we like it or not.

That being said, I still hope Mummy remains healthy for as long as possible, not least because it's her 79th birthday today and so I want her to be able to enjoy it. When I'm so far away, posting this song on this special day makes me feel closer to her. I tear up whenever I sing this song and sometimes even just listening to it makes me cry. I hope you'll like it. The rest of this series is here: 1 2 3 4).



[等我回家]

词 / 曲 : 锦泉
 
秋冬春夏
从不休假
煎炒滷拌烤通通难不倒她

一双手把孩子们都带大
不管再倾盆的雨下也要牵我回家

可是妈
強健的身躯虽然无力了
也不让岁月的风吹乱她的白发

她是妈妈
也是爸爸
任劳任怨不惜付出任何代价

为儿女幸福含辛茹苦不罢
说不喜欢吃好让我们吃多快高长大

可是妈
永远的超人快飞不动了
再也无法在外打天下单枪匹马

不说话
远望只只不归巢的鸟她
不让你看到強忍的眼泪悄悄落下

我愛的妈
花了大辈子撑起这一个家
该享清福时却还是一刻没得闲暇

换我来吧
换我来照顾妳握着妳的手啊
像小时候一样  走一下  停一下

记得等我回家
妈咪
陪妳一起看晚霞


[Wait for Me to Come Home]

Written By: Kim
 
Through the seasons
Never taking an off day
A master at cooking
Nothing is too difficult for her

Raising all her children single-handedly
No matter how heavy it is pouring
She will still come fetch me
And take me home

But Mum's healthy body though losing its strength
She never allows the winds of time to mess her white hair up

She is a mother
And also a father
Hardworking and willing to pay any price

Enduring hardship for her children and never giving up
She always says she does not like to eat
So that we have more to eat and can grow up taller and bigger

But Mum, our forever superwoman can hardly fly now
And she can no longer combat the world alone

Silently, she watches each of her chicks leave the nest never to return
But never lets you see
The tears she has been holding back fall

The mother that I love
Has spent most of her life supporting the family
When it is finally time to retire and enjoy life
She still refuses to slow down

Let me do it
Let me take care of you now
Let me hold your hand
Just like when I was little
Let's walk for a while
And stop for a while

Remember to wait for me to come home
Mummy, together we will watch the sunset




This concludes my "CNY at home" series. I'll soon be buying my air tickets to visit during CNY 2025 and we'll do this all over again!

Monday, June 24, 2024

CNY at home (part 4)

I'm now back in PNG with all the usual PNG problems with broken-down air-con and potable water systems and the like. More seriously though, the recent landslides in Enga province did affect some of my colleagues but didn't impact the location where I work. That being said, we do encounter small landslips that block roads and halt transportation of camp supplies every now and again as we're in an earthquake-prone area. Now that I've marked myself "safe", let me share the Facebook posts from the next part of my "CNY at home" series (the rest can be found here: 1 2 3 5).

Yes, this is a shop being crystal clear but I've never seen something so rudely put before. In fact, I think some items are a little suss. No receipt/invoice issued - is that even legal in Singapore? And anyone can tell me why is a picture of the phone needed for PayNow?

Was so looking forward to my first char kway teow but this was so disappointing (I asked with chilli and it came without and had to be added on the side). With nothing much in it, it costs $6.9! Luckily the D24 durian ice kachang made it up (a little).

Back from a sweaty run around the Serangoon Gardens neighbourhood. Boy, there are some mighty big mansions and rich people around! #AllAboutTheFlex

Dinner with the friend I went to Bangkok with last trip and staying over at her place tonight, so we can go jogging together early tomorrow. This is what I call a healthy social life. 😊

Here are the food pics taken that haven't been posted yet. Post-jog now and ravenous, it's time for another round of food (breakkie)! #LifeIsGood

Someone told me I look the same in all my pics. My response - am I supposed to wear makeup and wigs to look different in every shot?
PS: Thanks for a great catchup, friend, and putting me up for one night. Great jog too as always. See you again next time!

Does anyone know what this building is and why are cars stacked like that?

It's my last full day in Singapore today and gotta seize the day, starting with the weirdest sign I've seen so far in a lift.

The elegant lady that I call Mummy, at my sister's pretty apartment. #FamilyCatchup

Funny how I only take gym selfies when I'm overseas. Can someone tell me why? 💪💪💪  #FlexLikeABoss

Had a very interesting experience last night visiting a yet-to-be-developed housing estate (they still exist in Singapore). It looked really spooky and cool but I'm sure when I visit again in a year's time, it'll unfortunately be filled with hordes of people in vapid malls. #PlantationCrescent
PS: This estate is not yet registered on Google Maps and Google Earth.

Here are the remaining pics of the yummies I've had this trip. Still outstanding are Hokkien prawn mee and 五香虾饼 but there's always next time. #FatDieMe

It's been a great trip, especially not having spent Chinese New Year with my family since 2020 when COVID broke out. Till next time Mummy. Now, more importantly, do I #Flex better or her? 💪🤣


If you know my blog well, you'' know my next post will be a musical one. Stay tuned!

Sunday, June 16, 2024

CNY at home (part 3)

I am currently preparing for Rotation #18 by reviewing emails and handover notes (yawn!), but I still have time to post the next installment of my "CNY at home" series. Here are the other parts of the series (1 2 4 5).

It's the year of the Dragon and Mummy had to express her artistic culinary flair for this year's #lohei accordingly. She's good. #CNYDay2

It's the year of the Dragon and Mummy had to express her artistic culinary flair for this year's #lohei accordingly. She's good. #CNYDay2

It's 捞起 (lohei) time! #龙年快乐 #YearOfTheDragon

Eating and chatting non-stop from 1.30pm to 8.30pm... that's reunion for you. The old family photo albums were fun to look at. #FamilyWefie #CNY

Time to guess where we're heading off to again this drizzly morning. Hope we don't get crushed by crowds. #CNYDay3 #WithMummy

Did you guess right? We are at Chinatown! It's not as packed as we thought. Coffee time now. #LoveThisShot

The person who devised this contraption should be employed to make futuristic military weapons!

Even a no confidence vote for the Prime Minister can lead to security issues in this volatile era in Papua New Guinean politics. Hope all this will be put to bed by the time I return to work.

I thought the CNY gorging would put a dent in my diet-watching armour but phew! #CrisisAverted #PostGymSelfie

Simple home-cooked fare is the best show of a mother's love. Well, not so simple actually but you get the point. Yummy!

Looks like the Little Red Dot is as competitive as ever, with school exam results used as an ad at the tuition centre itself.

It's so good to catch up again old friend! #Flex

Dinner alone on Valentine's Day. Why not?

More home-cooked goodness that money cannot buy! All thanks to my super Mummy! #FatDieMe


Watch out for my next post which will be made from the Southern Highlands of PNG.